and [i ] was like "wtf mate?!"

uh so like GUY!
watched grey's anatomy season finale and it was SOOOOOO SAD! jeez. its like watching my soap with a little bit of house thrown in. so much drama!
i figured out the addison spinoff (mm taye diggs!). i didn't guess that the chief was the father of his baby or that christina and burke wouldnt get married or that george would fail (FAIL!) his exam. i dont want him and callie to have babies. ugh. and then meredith and derek breaking up (or not) is very weird and pointless.
and alex needs to get a damn clue.

whew.
but i cried when cristina cried climbing (cutting !?!?) out of that dress. i couldn't tell if she wanted to be single or she missed him. cus she said "i'm free", but yet she bawled like crazy. felt the emotion man. whoa.

and in other news...
i can almost swim. i drove like a crazy maniac to get over there cus i knew it would be dark and we needed to get an hour in. i was miserable cus the pump at my house is broken so i had the most jacked up shower ever. plus i was bitter that i had to wear my dysfunctional 2 piece suit that is only good for lying around and sweating, not being in the water.

when i get off the plane i need to head STRAIGHT to old navy to get a new suit. screw bikini village. waste of time and money.

it was good times. and we did a pseudo save yourself operation. in the deep end, i can tread water, turn myself around and do TWO (2!) different strokes to swim away. but i was tiiiiiiiired, boy! jeezum!

after jogging yesterday and swimming today, my legs are busted. if i keep this up i'll have some WICKED thighs come june. its too bad josh is leaving. i'll need to find another friend with a pool for the next school year. >;0P cus you can't really do all of this in the sea.

todays lesson: breast stroke and the rudiments of front crawl.
still working on breathing properly with my face in the water. so my breast stroke is kinda busted and my crawl is more of a glide/panic-breathe pattern.

oh! and bonus: can now snorkel without panicking, although i still breathe like a cow in labour. snorkel masks are VERY cool, especially when they work (dont leak). and everything underwater looks bigger than it really is. josh turned into a whale as i squatted underwater.

three cheers for people who are bored enough, yet patient enough to teach adults like me how to swim! extra cheers for working through the psychosis of not feeling like i'm drowning so that i can learn to breathe properly.

funny thing: behind my head he was coaching me on how to do the basic backstroke across the pool. telling me to be relaxed... and not think about the fact that i'd be crossing the deep end. and as he's talking, i'm staring at a giant stand of bamboo that is towering above the fence bordering his complex. this freakin bamboo must have been 8 feet tall if not higher cus i think it was growing from the bottom of the hill, and the pool is 2/3rds of the way up the hill. that's what made me calm. a random stand of bamboo. gently bending in the breeze. as i was busy figuring out that it was actually bamboo and not some giant bush, he stopped talking and i remembered where i was and i got anxious again.

just kidding!

backstroke gliding... good times!